Sometimes, life can be so fucked up that you may have to work with your own inversions...to complete and complement yourself!
Sunday, October 22, 2017
Wednesday, October 18, 2017
The man from the Earth!
It was a pretty tough day today...like most other days since 2012. But the day ended on a good note...
Watched the movie - "The man from the Earth"! Made for a pleasantly interesting watch!
Watched the movie - "The man from the Earth"! Made for a pleasantly interesting watch!
Thursday, October 5, 2017
The dilemma of give and take!
I read this on Internet today! A simple story that has a lot to offer!
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THE ABUNDANCE PRINCIPLE:
Once a man got lost in a desert. The water in his flask had run out two days ago, and he was on his last legs. He knew that if he didn't get some water soon, he would surely die. The man saw a small hut ahead of him. He thought it would be a mirage or maybe a hallucination, but having no other option, he moved toward it. As he got closer, he realized it was quite real. So he dragged his tired body to the door with the last of his strength.
The hut was not occupied and seemed like it had been abandoned for quite some time. The man entered into it, hoping against hope that he might find water inside.
His heart skipped a beat when he saw what was in the hut - a water hand pump...... It had a pipe going down through the floor, perhaps tapping a source of water deep under-ground.
He began working the hand pump, but no water came out. He kept at it and still nothing happened. Finally he gave up from exhaustion and frustration. He threw up his hands in despair. It looked as if he was going to die after all.
Then the man noticed a bottle in one corner of the hut. It was filled with water and corked up to prevent evaporation.
He uncorked the bottle and was about to gulp down the sweet life-giving water, when he noticed a piece of paper attached to it. Handwriting on the paper read : "Use this water to start the pump. Don't forget to fill the bottle when you're done."
He had a dilemma. He could follow the instruction and pour the water into the pump, or he could ignore it and just drink the water.
What to do? If he let the water go into the pump, what assurance did he have that it would work? What if the pump malfunctioned? What if the pipe had a leak? What if the underground reservoir had long dried up?
But then... maybe the instruction was correct. Should he risk it? If it turned out to be false, he would be throwing away the last water he would ever see.
Hands trembling, he poured the water into the pump. Then he closed his eyes, said a prayer, and started working the pump.
He heard a gurgling sound, and then water came gushing out, more than he could possibly use. He luxuriated in the cool and refreshing stream. He was going to live!
After drinking his fill and feeling much better, he looked around the hut. He found a pencil and a map of the region. The map showed that he was still far away from civilization, but at least now he knew where he was and which direction to go.
He filled his flask for the journey ahead. He also filled the bottle and put the cork back in. Before leaving the hut, he added his own writing below the instruction: "Believe me, it works!"
This story is all about life. It teaches us that We must GIVE before We can RECEIVE Abundantly.
More importantly, it also teaches that FAITH plays an important role in GIVING.
The man did not know if his action would be rewarded, but he proceeded regardless.
Without knowing what to expect, he made a Leap of Faith.
Water in this story represents the Good things in Life
Give life some Water to Work with, and it will RETURN far more than you put in........!!!
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THE ABUNDANCE PRINCIPLE:
Once a man got lost in a desert. The water in his flask had run out two days ago, and he was on his last legs. He knew that if he didn't get some water soon, he would surely die. The man saw a small hut ahead of him. He thought it would be a mirage or maybe a hallucination, but having no other option, he moved toward it. As he got closer, he realized it was quite real. So he dragged his tired body to the door with the last of his strength.
The hut was not occupied and seemed like it had been abandoned for quite some time. The man entered into it, hoping against hope that he might find water inside.
His heart skipped a beat when he saw what was in the hut - a water hand pump...... It had a pipe going down through the floor, perhaps tapping a source of water deep under-ground.
He began working the hand pump, but no water came out. He kept at it and still nothing happened. Finally he gave up from exhaustion and frustration. He threw up his hands in despair. It looked as if he was going to die after all.
Then the man noticed a bottle in one corner of the hut. It was filled with water and corked up to prevent evaporation.
He uncorked the bottle and was about to gulp down the sweet life-giving water, when he noticed a piece of paper attached to it. Handwriting on the paper read : "Use this water to start the pump. Don't forget to fill the bottle when you're done."
He had a dilemma. He could follow the instruction and pour the water into the pump, or he could ignore it and just drink the water.
What to do? If he let the water go into the pump, what assurance did he have that it would work? What if the pump malfunctioned? What if the pipe had a leak? What if the underground reservoir had long dried up?
But then... maybe the instruction was correct. Should he risk it? If it turned out to be false, he would be throwing away the last water he would ever see.
Hands trembling, he poured the water into the pump. Then he closed his eyes, said a prayer, and started working the pump.
He heard a gurgling sound, and then water came gushing out, more than he could possibly use. He luxuriated in the cool and refreshing stream. He was going to live!
After drinking his fill and feeling much better, he looked around the hut. He found a pencil and a map of the region. The map showed that he was still far away from civilization, but at least now he knew where he was and which direction to go.
He filled his flask for the journey ahead. He also filled the bottle and put the cork back in. Before leaving the hut, he added his own writing below the instruction: "Believe me, it works!"
This story is all about life. It teaches us that We must GIVE before We can RECEIVE Abundantly.
More importantly, it also teaches that FAITH plays an important role in GIVING.
The man did not know if his action would be rewarded, but he proceeded regardless.
Without knowing what to expect, he made a Leap of Faith.
Water in this story represents the Good things in Life
Give life some Water to Work with, and it will RETURN far more than you put in........!!!
Monday, September 25, 2017
Unconditional what?
There's no such thing as unconditional love. It's a myth! That it can happen with only one person (romantic relationship) or a specific set of persons (parent-children relationships for instance) is a condition in itself!
PS: I'm glad and proud to pass this wisdom to the future generations, whether or not they appreciate it in their most-needed hour of their lives!
PS: I'm glad and proud to pass this wisdom to the future generations, whether or not they appreciate it in their most-needed hour of their lives!
Wednesday, September 13, 2017
Anthropogenic influence, merely?
In the aftermath of Hurricane Harvey, the author, a Nobel laureate argues that "preventive" collective action is needed to mitigate the impact of climate change. I believe, disasters are a way of nature balancing itself and they happen regardless of the existence of man on Earth. While there is every need to check global warming and reduce (or optimise) the anthropogenic influence for a better planet, I cannot buy this argument that disasters like these are preventable or even that they can be controlled (in an "intended" way!).
Tuesday, August 29, 2017
Monday, August 21, 2017
Friday, August 18, 2017
Yoga and Happiness!
Different people interpret yoga in different ways. Here's one interesting narration - "Update your mental software" - on how two authors/yoga practitioners look at yoga!
Monday, August 14, 2017
Sunday, August 13, 2017
Thursday, August 10, 2017
Tuesday, August 8, 2017
Illusive reality or Realistic illusion?
“You are entitled to your own opinion,
but you are not entitled to your own facts.”
but you are not entitled to your own facts.”
— Daniel Patrick Moynihan
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“We risk being the first people in history to have been
able to make their illusions so vivid, so persuasive,
so ‘realistic’ that they can live in them.”
able to make their illusions so vivid, so persuasive,
so ‘realistic’ that they can live in them.”
— Daniel J. Boorstin, The Image: A Guide to
Pseudo-Events in America (1961)
Pseudo-Events in America (1961)
Quotes picked up from here!
Sunday, August 6, 2017
Move the date!!!
Only last year, I got aware of this concept of "Earth Overshoot Day"! It fell on August 08th, last year. I totally forgot to check on which date it falls this year. I checked it just today and oops, we already crossed it! August 02nd, it was, this year!
#movethedate is a campaign to reduce the ecological footprint of humanity and move forward the date of overshoot, for a sustainable future!
#movethedate is a campaign to reduce the ecological footprint of humanity and move forward the date of overshoot, for a sustainable future!
Monday, July 31, 2017
Friday, July 28, 2017
The New Optimists!
According to "The New Optimists", it seems we live in the best of the times. With life made so easy and comfortable, perhaps I must agree with it. Humanity must be living in the best of its times, but the cost of that comfort is being borne big time by something other than humanity...is what I sincerely feel!
Thursday, July 27, 2017
Seeking!
"What you seek is seeking you!" as per Rumi. So, if you actually believe in it, also start believing in its inverse, "What you stop seeking, stops seeking you!" As simple as that!
-- Dedicated to all those who are in limbo and seeking closure.
-- Dedicated to all those who are in limbo and seeking closure.
Monday, July 24, 2017
Saturday, July 22, 2017
Created in the image of God!
"The God of the Bible is a God that says that the world can be based on love, that it can be based on caring–love your neighbor and love the stranger–that the world can go in that direction, that that can happen. And not because of some transcendence of all that is but because the fundamental spiritual reality of the universe is that it is pervaded with love and goodness. And if you are a realized human being or moving in that direction, then your test is to be a witness to that possibility, to be a partner with God in the healing and transformation of the world. This is what it means to say that human beings are created in the image of God: We are meant to be partners, and our task is to actualize more of the goodness and love in the universe and to recognize the world as potentially transformable."
-- Rabbi Michael Lerner, in an interview with Michael Cohen.
June Raymond, a sister of Notre Dame, explaining why she remains a Christian despite the negative and limiting things about the system, says: “It obviously is not because I love the institution. On the whole I don’t, but the rest of it as well as its shadow is part of me and in this strange mystery of Christ I find my deepest being and a way back to the truths that transform and offer meaning and hope.”
-- Rabbi Michael Lerner, in an interview with Michael Cohen.
June Raymond, a sister of Notre Dame, explaining why she remains a Christian despite the negative and limiting things about the system, says: “It obviously is not because I love the institution. On the whole I don’t, but the rest of it as well as its shadow is part of me and in this strange mystery of Christ I find my deepest being and a way back to the truths that transform and offer meaning and hope.”
The fortune and the psychic!
If you allow it to, love can make people go crazy! Here is one such instance. I doubted the authenticity of the story, but upon further more browsing, I HAD to believe...that it happened for real!
Friday, July 14, 2017
Thursday, July 13, 2017
Wednesday, July 12, 2017
Anthropocentricity!
“It is amazing that we should be so sensitive to suicide, homicide, and genocide and have absolutely no moral principles for dealing with biocide or geocide. Over-concerned with the well-being of the human, we feel it is better that everything is destroyed than that humans suffer to any degree.”
Thomas Berry
Thomas Berry
Monday, July 10, 2017
Saturday, July 8, 2017
Look outside!
I guess, we are often being given this advice of "Look within" at the current juncture when we are increasingly becoming empty within. That is the paradox of today. While change has to start from within, that change is often not sufficient for most of the real world problems today. Mind you, I'm NOT saying internal management is not needed. I'm saying, while that change IS needed, that change is often NOT sufficient.
When the problem is created due to external circumstances, managing oneself internally forever not only amounts to adapting oneself to change but sometimes also to changing oneself to fit into an inappropriate system or environment. It's not just changing, but derailing from one's ideal or optimum self.
So while I appreciate self-help advice such as these where help comes from assessing internal factors, I wonder why there is not enough focus these days on assessing the external factors. True, there might not be enough control or power to change the external environment one is in. But sometimes one needs to realize that it is NOT always possible to change oneself beyond a certain limit! The next alternative then is to shift to a different environment.
It will be wrong if the capacity of a fish is assessed based on how high it can fly or if the capacity of a bird is assessed based on how far it can swim. Neither of them can do the other's job. They are best in their own environments. These are examples that starkly bring out the incapacity of the beings in inappropriate environments. Unfortunately, the real world scenarios are NOT this direct and we are often lost adapting ourselves to systems we NEED NOT fit into! We would rather do better elsewhere!
And it need NOT always be shifting to a different environment. Sometimes our assertiveness in NOT adapting to a system also brings the essential change in a system which remained stagnant for long, just because the actors operating within it did not care to feed it back honest responses.
I can go on and on, but I hope you are getting my point. I would have loved to depict it through a picture, but I'm absolutely in no mood to put those efforts to create one! But for the technically inclined, I can go ahead and explain it through more text in technical terms. Let's say a couple of components, say X, Y and Z are interacting faultily in a system. And let's say you are responsible for "managing" one component A. Now, let's say the owners of components X, Y and Z are complaining that component A is sending incorrect responses all the while. Would you try and fix component A to send the responses X, Y and Z "want" or would you check that maybe A is sending responses as it should, but the fault could actually be with other components' expectations? Or sometimes, the fault could be on both the sides and all the components might have to be altered.
While we might be intelligent enough to think properly when it comes to such problems in the technological world , in real world we are being forced to incline more towards "internal management" and that always might not be the complete solution. I'm sure you got my point by this time... So go ahead and look outside so that you give somebody else a chance to do their "internal management" instead of you banging your head at it, doing it alone and aloof all the time...so that you do NOT foster a system that is tough on most of the people...a system that most of the people are unhappy with! Because systemic changes are waiting!
When the problem is created due to external circumstances, managing oneself internally forever not only amounts to adapting oneself to change but sometimes also to changing oneself to fit into an inappropriate system or environment. It's not just changing, but derailing from one's ideal or optimum self.
So while I appreciate self-help advice such as these where help comes from assessing internal factors, I wonder why there is not enough focus these days on assessing the external factors. True, there might not be enough control or power to change the external environment one is in. But sometimes one needs to realize that it is NOT always possible to change oneself beyond a certain limit! The next alternative then is to shift to a different environment.
It will be wrong if the capacity of a fish is assessed based on how high it can fly or if the capacity of a bird is assessed based on how far it can swim. Neither of them can do the other's job. They are best in their own environments. These are examples that starkly bring out the incapacity of the beings in inappropriate environments. Unfortunately, the real world scenarios are NOT this direct and we are often lost adapting ourselves to systems we NEED NOT fit into! We would rather do better elsewhere!
And it need NOT always be shifting to a different environment. Sometimes our assertiveness in NOT adapting to a system also brings the essential change in a system which remained stagnant for long, just because the actors operating within it did not care to feed it back honest responses.
I can go on and on, but I hope you are getting my point. I would have loved to depict it through a picture, but I'm absolutely in no mood to put those efforts to create one! But for the technically inclined, I can go ahead and explain it through more text in technical terms. Let's say a couple of components, say X, Y and Z are interacting faultily in a system. And let's say you are responsible for "managing" one component A. Now, let's say the owners of components X, Y and Z are complaining that component A is sending incorrect responses all the while. Would you try and fix component A to send the responses X, Y and Z "want" or would you check that maybe A is sending responses as it should, but the fault could actually be with other components' expectations? Or sometimes, the fault could be on both the sides and all the components might have to be altered.
While we might be intelligent enough to think properly when it comes to such problems in the technological world , in real world we are being forced to incline more towards "internal management" and that always might not be the complete solution. I'm sure you got my point by this time... So go ahead and look outside so that you give somebody else a chance to do their "internal management" instead of you banging your head at it, doing it alone and aloof all the time...so that you do NOT foster a system that is tough on most of the people...a system that most of the people are unhappy with! Because systemic changes are waiting!
Friday, July 7, 2017
Thursday, July 6, 2017
Saturday, July 1, 2017
Thursday, June 29, 2017
Wednesday, June 21, 2017
Monday, June 19, 2017
The Rapture!!
The knot of nothing has been ruptured. The Mother has awakened from Her deep slumber. She has started flowing, burning and melting away the abyss. It has arrived and it can't be reversed....
Wednesday, June 14, 2017
Killing time!
When you are unable to live, unable to die, you can go sleeping...day and night alike. A time-tested alternative, it is! I don't know, but I'm guessing it works better than drinking, drugs and other such dark habits on the list...
Friday, June 2, 2017
Friday, May 19, 2017
When they finally meet!
"Dream and Destiny are two separate dimensions of life but it would be a fantastic combination when they finally meet " ..... 🌞..... Suprabhat
Somebody sent me this message today. They made my day!
Somebody sent me this message today. They made my day!
Thursday, May 11, 2017
If they could, they would!
They should have dealt it all better. They should have treated you better. But if they could, they would. The problem is they can't.
For all that you have been for them in life, for the way you treated them, they should have understood you. They should have empathised with you, or at least sympathised with you (though that would do you no good)! They should have. But if they could, they would. The problem is they can't.
For the long past you share with them, they should have tried not to hurt your feelings by making inappropriate comparisons. For your journey was different from others'. They could never understand the void you are experiencing in your life, but at least they should have tried NOT to deepen that void. They should have. But if they could, they would. The problem is they can't.
In the times you needed them the most, they should have been your go-to point to hide from yourself. They shouldn't have made you feel, it is them you should run away from, first, to find some peace of mind. When all that you had to cherish, was your past, they should have not forgotten it. Instead of ridiculing your present, they should have used your past to boost you in the present. They should have. But if they could, they would. The problem is they can't.
They would never accept that they hurt you. Every time you want to explain the hurt and the grief they are causing you because of their inability to understand you, they blame you hurt them. And maybe you did. You are open to that possibility. Your awareness and your willingness to mend yourself only leads you to adjust more. They are not even ready to listen to your grief, then how can they act on it, to reduce their share in it?
All that matters to them is to defend themselves, that they did NOT cause you any grief and blame you that you caused grief in their lives. Your feelings, your grief, your pain, your agony...it all goes down the gutters. You are supposed to handle it yourself. They have nothing to do with it whether or not they have played any part in it. But you do understand the grief and hurt you are causing them. You should never discuss things with them and expect their participation to ease the tension in life. They are not game for it, you gradually understand this. So you slowly reduce the time you spend with them, you reduce the conversations with them, you try and reduce the interaction with them. You try and learn to stay alone even when you are sharing a life with them. You try your best to expect the least from them.
But after all it's a family. How much ever you try, life throws up some or the other situation that demands interaction at an emotional level with them.
Their words hurt you. The way they respond to your feelings hurt you. The way they take you and your agony easy hurts you. The way they respect their own time yet kill your time leaving you to yourself to unfold the cobwebs they too wove, hurts you. This slow death inside you, sharing a life with an incompatible family, is it any better than somebody raping you?
At least, somebody has crossed the line there. Culprits are clear. Here, there are no visible enemies. No visible abuse. Only deep wounds and scars invisible to everybody, but you. They are right in their way and you are right in your own. No point, discussing things from the stand point of right and wrong. But who will heal your decaying self? How long can you take this ordeal?
Divorcing a spouse is much easier than divorcing a family, you finally feel!
For all that you have been for them in life, for the way you treated them, they should have understood you. They should have empathised with you, or at least sympathised with you (though that would do you no good)! They should have. But if they could, they would. The problem is they can't.
For the long past you share with them, they should have tried not to hurt your feelings by making inappropriate comparisons. For your journey was different from others'. They could never understand the void you are experiencing in your life, but at least they should have tried NOT to deepen that void. They should have. But if they could, they would. The problem is they can't.
In the times you needed them the most, they should have been your go-to point to hide from yourself. They shouldn't have made you feel, it is them you should run away from, first, to find some peace of mind. When all that you had to cherish, was your past, they should have not forgotten it. Instead of ridiculing your present, they should have used your past to boost you in the present. They should have. But if they could, they would. The problem is they can't.
They would never accept that they hurt you. Every time you want to explain the hurt and the grief they are causing you because of their inability to understand you, they blame you hurt them. And maybe you did. You are open to that possibility. Your awareness and your willingness to mend yourself only leads you to adjust more. They are not even ready to listen to your grief, then how can they act on it, to reduce their share in it?
All that matters to them is to defend themselves, that they did NOT cause you any grief and blame you that you caused grief in their lives. Your feelings, your grief, your pain, your agony...it all goes down the gutters. You are supposed to handle it yourself. They have nothing to do with it whether or not they have played any part in it. But you do understand the grief and hurt you are causing them. You should never discuss things with them and expect their participation to ease the tension in life. They are not game for it, you gradually understand this. So you slowly reduce the time you spend with them, you reduce the conversations with them, you try and reduce the interaction with them. You try and learn to stay alone even when you are sharing a life with them. You try your best to expect the least from them.
But after all it's a family. How much ever you try, life throws up some or the other situation that demands interaction at an emotional level with them.
Their words hurt you. The way they respond to your feelings hurt you. The way they take you and your agony easy hurts you. The way they respect their own time yet kill your time leaving you to yourself to unfold the cobwebs they too wove, hurts you. This slow death inside you, sharing a life with an incompatible family, is it any better than somebody raping you?
At least, somebody has crossed the line there. Culprits are clear. Here, there are no visible enemies. No visible abuse. Only deep wounds and scars invisible to everybody, but you. They are right in their way and you are right in your own. No point, discussing things from the stand point of right and wrong. But who will heal your decaying self? How long can you take this ordeal?
Divorcing a spouse is much easier than divorcing a family, you finally feel!
Tuesday, May 2, 2017
Fantasy!
It is ok to be in a fantasy, but it's important to know and remember that it has only been a fantasy!
Tuesday, April 25, 2017
How long?
Ever since, I wrote that post on funny translation of telugu lyrics, I thought I must give the serious translation a try. So let's see how it goes...
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How long will this devilish morality prevail, won't the time ask?
Won't in your heart, the fearless flame of truth blaze into an inferno? (repeat!)
Don't you assume that only woman is etched with flaws (or is the weaker gender by default)!
When she unleashes the goddess within, is there a way to stop her?
And don't you think that the sins you committed will help you sail!
The day your sins ripen, your days will be numbered!
(......... The above stanzas repeat again .........)
How long will this devilish law prevail, won't the time ask?
The mother and the sister who are part of your daily life, are women too like us, aren't they?
Why can't you perceive in us, the same goodness you perceive in them? Can't you?
Those heartless hearts that attack and ask for the flesh, just because they are thirsty,
They truly deserve to be burnt...that's justice, any sane woman would say and believe!
Further on, she will fight destiny or anything that spirals to consume her!
How long will this devilish law prevail, won't the time ask?
Won't in your heart, the fearless flame of truth blaze into an inferno?
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The one-liner gist: "No matter what the sin is, it can't sustain long, truth will eventually prevail and whatever is just will conquer!"
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How long will this devilish morality prevail, won't the time ask?
Won't in your heart, the fearless flame of truth blaze into an inferno? (repeat!)
Don't you assume that only woman is etched with flaws (or is the weaker gender by default)!
When she unleashes the goddess within, is there a way to stop her?
And don't you think that the sins you committed will help you sail!
The day your sins ripen, your days will be numbered!
(......... The above stanzas repeat again .........)
How long will this devilish law prevail, won't the time ask?
The mother and the sister who are part of your daily life, are women too like us, aren't they?
Why can't you perceive in us, the same goodness you perceive in them? Can't you?
Those heartless hearts that attack and ask for the flesh, just because they are thirsty,
They truly deserve to be burnt...that's justice, any sane woman would say and believe!
Further on, she will fight destiny or anything that spirals to consume her!
How long will this devilish law prevail, won't the time ask?
Won't in your heart, the fearless flame of truth blaze into an inferno?
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The one-liner gist: "No matter what the sin is, it can't sustain long, truth will eventually prevail and whatever is just will conquer!"
Tuesday, April 18, 2017
Translation! Pure translation, that is!
I don't usually read my own blog, but I was in some mood for it today. So, I was just browsing through my blog entries from the last posted one till the point I reached this post on a Telugu song's lyrics. So the google translation very proactively prompted on my mobile if it could be of some help...translate the Telugu lyrics into English for me. I said "No" and went ahead to read the post. Something transpired in my mind and I felt why not translate it and see how it turns out. So I asked it now to help me...but it couldn't! "Oh this! For all your proactivity!" I thought. But again, a beautiful idea struck me and I converted the view to show me the web version and then asked google to offer its translation and show me its prowess! And the result?!? Breathtaking! Telugu readers! Enjoy!!!
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how long the demon will not ask for justice for a long time? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
Lopalanni world, women unnayanukoku! If the available energy to stop?
Nitodunnayanukukoku sins that you are! Rojoccindante season running on you!
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
Lopalanni world, women unnayanukoku! If the available energy to stop?
Nitodunnayanukukoku sins that you are! Rojoccindante season running on you!
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
Nitoti day of the mother, sisters, and she is not adalle? Is it not?
Vallandarilonu your eyes see nothing but the best, cullenannaya us? Or not?
That thirst for heart attacks and give the body, cremate each viriboni nammindira virtue is!
Sudinaina against vidhinaina anymore !!!
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
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LOL! Was so hilarious! Especially the line "That thirst for heart attacks..."... I had to laugh my stomach out there!
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how long the demon will not ask for justice for a long time? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
Lopalanni world, women unnayanukoku! If the available energy to stop?
Nitodunnayanukukoku sins that you are! Rojoccindante season running on you!
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
Lopalanni world, women unnayanukoku! If the available energy to stop?
Nitodunnayanukukoku sins that you are! Rojoccindante season running on you!
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
Nitoti day of the mother, sisters, and she is not adalle? Is it not?
Vallandarilonu your eyes see nothing but the best, cullenannaya us? Or not?
That thirst for heart attacks and give the body, cremate each viriboni nammindira virtue is!
Sudinaina against vidhinaina anymore !!!
Rogue Justice asked how long a period? Ragalada blaze from the heart of the cauldron with impunity?
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LOL! Was so hilarious! Especially the line "That thirst for heart attacks..."... I had to laugh my stomach out there!
Saturday, April 15, 2017
Dreaming awake!
"To destroy the stereotypes of the usual worldview, in order to break free from the box of conditionality and to wake up in the dream, you are dreaming awake." Vadim Zealand.
Friday, April 14, 2017
Man and Science!
“Science can and should take us to a place where we exclaim 'how wonderful creation is'.” Laura Smith.
"Even beyond the threat of nuclear warfare, I think, the ecological crisis is the greatest threat mankind collectively has ever faced... My hypothesis is that man is hampered in his meeting of this environmental crisis by a severe and pervasive apathy which is based largely upon feelings and attitudes of which he is unconscious." Harold Searles.
"Even beyond the threat of nuclear warfare, I think, the ecological crisis is the greatest threat mankind collectively has ever faced... My hypothesis is that man is hampered in his meeting of this environmental crisis by a severe and pervasive apathy which is based largely upon feelings and attitudes of which he is unconscious." Harold Searles.
Tuesday, April 11, 2017
Saturday, April 1, 2017
Tuesday, March 28, 2017
Cleanliness is next to Godliness!
Indians believe in spiritual purity and atleast superficially revere this proverb. But unfortunately India is suffering from this malaise of uncleanliness especially due to laid-back lethargic Indian mindset. It needs the so-called paradigmatic shift in Indian mindsets to actually realize 'Swacch Bharat".
Today, as I was trying to delete some stuff from my mobile and make some space for some art I was about to click, I bumped into this video. It totally slipped out of my notice when it was sent...
Sunday, March 26, 2017
Lie
Perhaps, happiness is the truth, while grief and sorrow are illusions. And maybe it's all only a matter of time!
But we spend a lot of time living a lie. That's the inevitable norm for humans.
But we spend a lot of time living a lie. That's the inevitable norm for humans.
Monday, March 20, 2017
Tryst with the past!
While you enjoy this tryst with the past, take this quiz on that ever flowing thing! My score - 7/10...actually 9/10 would be a decent score for this quiz.
Monday, March 13, 2017
Redemption!
One's past can be someone else's future! Or it need not be...it's a matter of both chance and choice!
Thursday, March 9, 2017
Tuesday, March 7, 2017
Friday, March 3, 2017
Friday, February 24, 2017
Monday, February 20, 2017
Advertisements!
Advertisements are usually fun to watch, though the message they seem to convey, seems totally unrelated to the product they are intended to promote. This advertisement really caught my attention...it was well made.
Another ad, which I thorougly enjoyed in the recent times was this Asian Paint Ad.
Karma
LOL! Couldn't stop laughing at it, for about a minute...
Well, that word reminds me of a movie I saw a week ago. There is this Telugu movie "Karma" which I never heard of, until I saw the advertisement on TV one fine day, that it was going to be telecast the next day. Missed the movie on TV, but made up for it on internet. I usually ensure that I don't read anything about the movie before I watch it, if one of its promo/trailer/song/lyrics/dialogues (why all that? some times even name of the movie) that doesn't give away much, inspires me to watch it. Same was the case with this too. And I was pleasantly surprised. I have only one thing to say - that was a very bold attempt by Adavi Sesh, especially given that was his first movie as a director, hero and writer way back in 2010...And lo, we all...I mean the keen Telugu audience started to hear about this guy only since Baahubali I guess (that was the case with me at least...I came to know about his background...his flair for movies, his stint in US through one of his newspaper interviews). His other movie, "Kshanam" too was a pretty fine movie.
Friday, February 17, 2017
I'm a Tidsoptimist!
Yeah, I always knew that...that I am a Tidsoptimist!!! (21st word there!) Just that I got aware of this word only today.
I have this weird inkling not to be too early for anything. Like I feel, why turn up early and waste time, I could do something else in the mean time! What is weird is, I'd be ready to take the repercussions of being late, but I'd never be really interested to take the risk of being early. What is weirder is, despite knowing I'm a Tidsoptimist, I never feel that I should change and become time sensitive...rightly acting on time. I'm not just a Tidsoptimist but a little more than that...somebody who dislikes being early.
I have this weird inkling not to be too early for anything. Like I feel, why turn up early and waste time, I could do something else in the mean time! What is weird is, I'd be ready to take the repercussions of being late, but I'd never be really interested to take the risk of being early. What is weirder is, despite knowing I'm a Tidsoptimist, I never feel that I should change and become time sensitive...rightly acting on time. I'm not just a Tidsoptimist but a little more than that...somebody who dislikes being early.
Wednesday, February 15, 2017
Miracles
I wonder if there is any such thing as a 'miracle'...the way we human beings refer to it...
Because I'm getting to realize that behind such miracles, there's usually some real effort and will...to make them happen.
Because I'm getting to realize that behind such miracles, there's usually some real effort and will...to make them happen.
Sunday, February 5, 2017
Reality? Really?
This is really awesome! Taking the Wikipedia's entry on Augmented Reality and applying the definitions on this video makes one naturally wonder - does AR augment the reality or diminish the reality? Does AR enhance one's current perception of reality or corrupt it?
Great video indeed! Like the climax...with AR even the destination to God cannot be real! Once you enter it, there's no escape...not at least through it (when it is offering you the exit), until there's an external intervention.
When the physical and virtual realities merge, would the product be still a reality? I'm just wondering!
Back-to-back Fire Effect!
Now, that's how I'm trying to explain you a scenario wherein a person who is "observing" another person "experience" a backfire effect, experiences that backfire effect backfire on him/her because his observation process backfired on him.
Hmm, confusing? How do I explain you that? Yeah! Take this write-up for instance. At one point, the editor, the Chief Science Officer of U.S.S PopSci, says - "We know that writing about science and tech for everyone means writing about science and tech for folks who might not always like the facts we present to them." The author also states at another point - "...how I felt about the challenge of convincing readers that facts were facts and fiction was fiction." She also quotes a psychologist - "A man with a conviction is a hard man to change. Tell him you disagree and he turns away. Show him facts or figures and he questions your sources. Appeal to logic and he fails to see your point."
But, there's another side to this! Aren't scientists too people with conviction? A conviction that whatever is validated by science is a fact!!! That is what I believe is called Scientism...What if Science backfires on them? That is the Back-to-back Fire Effect I was talking about in the beginning of the article!
Now, what is fact, what is fiction...only time will tell, not science!
Now, what is fact, what is fiction...only time will tell, not science!
Tuesday, January 24, 2017
Sunday, January 22, 2017
Ghatana movie - Ennaallee raakshasa neethi? - Telugu song lyrics!
So I happened to watch this telugu movie - "Ghatana" - yesterday. After the movie, I just wanted to browse on it, but was surprised to see there is no wikipedia entry for this movie! No good site to download songs from and refer to lyrics either! Since I really liked the end credits song and wanted to practice the same, I thought I'd jot down the lyrics in my own blog. Even the song audio which is available online is slightly different from the actual song in the movie. I liked the version in the movie, so I thought if somebody is looking for lyrics, this entry might come handy!
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Saturday, January 14, 2017
Tuesday, January 10, 2017
Friday, January 6, 2017
That Generation Gap!
So there was this Digg Newsfeed - "Imagine A World Where Gen X-ers Love Millennials".
While I agree that every generation keeps complaining about its next generation, there is certainly a sudden shift between the generations on the either side of the millennium. While every generation goes ahead of its previous one in some or the other way, the current generation seems to have taken a giant leap from where its previous generation stood. If the sheer acceleration of the next generation invites a complaining trait from its predecessors, it's no wonder that the Gen-Xers tend to dislike or even hate Millennials especially in those instances where the latter made their lives complicated.
Even when it comes to the Parent-Child relationship between these two generations, while the 'love' element still remains, perhaps the Gen X-ers are proud of their Millenial children more due to their own hard work they invested on them rather than due to the accomplishments of the latter. Yeah, I know I generalised it there. But just saying...in general terms...that generation gap this one time seems to be pretty wide.
While I agree that every generation keeps complaining about its next generation, there is certainly a sudden shift between the generations on the either side of the millennium. While every generation goes ahead of its previous one in some or the other way, the current generation seems to have taken a giant leap from where its previous generation stood. If the sheer acceleration of the next generation invites a complaining trait from its predecessors, it's no wonder that the Gen-Xers tend to dislike or even hate Millennials especially in those instances where the latter made their lives complicated.
Even when it comes to the Parent-Child relationship between these two generations, while the 'love' element still remains, perhaps the Gen X-ers are proud of their Millenial children more due to their own hard work they invested on them rather than due to the accomplishments of the latter. Yeah, I know I generalised it there. But just saying...in general terms...that generation gap this one time seems to be pretty wide.
Monday, January 2, 2017
Post-truth!
Now, it seems that's the Oxford Word of 2016!
I opened 'The Hindu' after a long time*. Specifically 'Sunday Magazine' was my favourite during my Engineering days. So, I opened that. But, my head and stomach went dizzy when I saw the content all bombarding one thing - "The post-truth"! Like there were so many titles on 'truth' itself! The first article in the front page gave a lead to other articles in the inner pages! (There was a reference to 'post-truth era' in the first article!)
Now, what on earth does that mean? Have we all realized the Truth already, at least most of us? And are we grappling with the aftermath of Truth? (Now, I don't mean there's just one big Truth out there...like TRUTH...used it that way just for the ease of it!) I, on the other hand feel most of us haven't realised the essential truths of these times and are hence leading distorted lives. So, I got curious and went ahead to know what it was all about. Just started going through the first article and the content felt really heavy. The article felt more like a show-case of author's vocabulary and his grip on big concepts. Was it because I lost touch with the paper that I started to feel that way or was the article really written in a deviant way...I don't know, but I had no mood whatsoever to go through other articles. So, I stopped with the first one abruptly! (Infact, the titles themselves were so repelling. When I saw the fourth title, I asked myself, "Really? Did I read it right? Was it 'distort' or 'discover'? Or was that sarcasm?)
I opened 'The Hindu' after a long time*. Specifically 'Sunday Magazine' was my favourite during my Engineering days. So, I opened that. But, my head and stomach went dizzy when I saw the content all bombarding one thing - "The post-truth"! Like there were so many titles on 'truth' itself! The first article in the front page gave a lead to other articles in the inner pages! (There was a reference to 'post-truth era' in the first article!)
- 'The year we reinvented the truth'
- 'Truth through many tasks'
- 'Truth in the selfie era'
- 'You need politics to discover truth'
Now, what on earth does that mean? Have we all realized the Truth already, at least most of us? And are we grappling with the aftermath of Truth? (Now, I don't mean there's just one big Truth out there...like TRUTH...used it that way just for the ease of it!) I, on the other hand feel most of us haven't realised the essential truths of these times and are hence leading distorted lives. So, I got curious and went ahead to know what it was all about. Just started going through the first article and the content felt really heavy. The article felt more like a show-case of author's vocabulary and his grip on big concepts. Was it because I lost touch with the paper that I started to feel that way or was the article really written in a deviant way...I don't know, but I had no mood whatsoever to go through other articles. So, I stopped with the first one abruptly! (Infact, the titles themselves were so repelling. When I saw the fourth title, I asked myself, "Really? Did I read it right? Was it 'distort' or 'discover'? Or was that sarcasm?)
If you too feel the same way going through the first write-up, don't trouble yourselves much. This sentence will more or less explain what the author means by 'post-truth' - "If Brexit signalled the post-truth era, Donald Trump’s victory was its definitive arrival."
Whatever that 'post-truth' was supposed to mean, for now, like many others before me, I'm disillusioned with the word 'truth', so I will stop here and allow you to explore further as per your interest and energy. But, if you haven't already come across this word, I'd like to take credit for introducing that to you! That was all today's post meant to do! :-)
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*I stopped reading 'The Hindu' or for that matter any sort of news since last August. Information was not interesting any more to me. It was all the same...knowing it or not knowing it didn't matter. My Dad started complaining, "Nobody reads the paper these days. It goes into the racks just the way it arrives! And nobody even cares to keep the paper in the racks at the end of the day. It just keeps piling on sofa, if I stop caring about it! I will stop the paper!" He says he is addressing that to everybody (including himself), but those statements only hit me (my brothers just ignore it as usual) and I respond - "Now Dad, for God's sake, please don't start complaining as if a kid has stopped doing her homework! I'm older than that and I will read it if I really want to read it anyway! And you are not going to stop paper even if nobody is reading it. How many times should I explain my logic? We spend a thousand easily when we go out for lunch, so why not some 250/- on newspaper for a month! Even if I gain one important piece of information a month, the cost that goes into it is justified. For instance that piece of info the other day on Nagarjunsagar being part of....."
Infact, once before that my Dad even stopped the paper. I was like how can anybody in the home be so indifferent to my words and needs. I blackmailed them - "Whichever home I reside at, will get 'The Hindu'. I'm not gonna stay here if you stop the paper. Tell me, should I leave this house so that I can realize my basic freedom to newspaper?" I then got the paper reinstated!
Sunday, January 1, 2017
The Killer Energy!
I think I have spoken quite many times about void and disaster energy already in my blog. But the energy I have been experiencing since the past two months seems to differ a bit. Since I don't maintain any journal apart from this blog, I don't exactly remember when it started and what has been its periodicity. But I can say that the quality of the energy has changed quite a bit.
When I experience this phase, I experience tremendous amount of self-pity and also a lot of grief...infact as if the whole grief of the world is on my shoulders. I cry inconsolably for my state and I can just weep like that non-stop, for say at least ten minutes, as if my heart is poring itself out with no bounds. Weeping used to happen before too, once in a while, but then it wasn't with this kind of intensity. Weeping perhaps brought me solace before, but the weeping of late, feels more like inconsolable vent out.
I gradually realised that during such a phase the energy craves for non-existence. I just don't feel like existing during such phases and I absolutely feel like dying. It's just that I cannot gather my will power to commit such an act, but if I do have will power I might as well commit that. Such would be the grief during those times. I think such is the paradox of that situation...it is due to lack of an integrating spirit and will power that I experience such grief and pain and it is that very deficit which does not allow me to deal with grief and pain in a systematic way. I feel like all parts of me are so disintegrated that I don't feel myself actually. I feel myself more as a spectator of myself, than as my own self...if that makes any sense!
But then, I'm sure you would recollect that most of the features in the last para - like the sensation of dying etc, I had already mentioned that I was experiencing during void and disaster energy phases. But the intensity of this seems to be too much, of late. Sure! I must also mention that I have been experiencing phases of normalcy - peace and calmness as such without any explicit accomplishments - more than ever these days...but when such phases of disaster energy recur, the killer energy is certainly going for the kill. It's becoming quite a nightmare to experience this.
The normalcy is feeling better and better and the killer energy getting worser and worser. I'm just waiting for this (-> recurrence of killer-energy phase) to end soon!
When I experience this phase, I experience tremendous amount of self-pity and also a lot of grief...infact as if the whole grief of the world is on my shoulders. I cry inconsolably for my state and I can just weep like that non-stop, for say at least ten minutes, as if my heart is poring itself out with no bounds. Weeping used to happen before too, once in a while, but then it wasn't with this kind of intensity. Weeping perhaps brought me solace before, but the weeping of late, feels more like inconsolable vent out.
I gradually realised that during such a phase the energy craves for non-existence. I just don't feel like existing during such phases and I absolutely feel like dying. It's just that I cannot gather my will power to commit such an act, but if I do have will power I might as well commit that. Such would be the grief during those times. I think such is the paradox of that situation...it is due to lack of an integrating spirit and will power that I experience such grief and pain and it is that very deficit which does not allow me to deal with grief and pain in a systematic way. I feel like all parts of me are so disintegrated that I don't feel myself actually. I feel myself more as a spectator of myself, than as my own self...if that makes any sense!
But then, I'm sure you would recollect that most of the features in the last para - like the sensation of dying etc, I had already mentioned that I was experiencing during void and disaster energy phases. But the intensity of this seems to be too much, of late. Sure! I must also mention that I have been experiencing phases of normalcy - peace and calmness as such without any explicit accomplishments - more than ever these days...but when such phases of disaster energy recur, the killer energy is certainly going for the kill. It's becoming quite a nightmare to experience this.
The normalcy is feeling better and better and the killer energy getting worser and worser. I'm just waiting for this (-> recurrence of killer-energy phase) to end soon!
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