So, I have been in a constant worry/grief mode for the past few weeks. Some or the other situation has been triggering me to feel bad and the spiral continued. So, I was just pondering today as to what's leading to all these things. I suddenly realized that of late I've been operating from a space of what others think of me, rather than from a space of what I think and believe about myself. I don't even know when exactly I got into this mode. I kind of knew that I was doing this, but did not pay much attention to it.
Today, I suddenly realized that I have been wasting a lot of time giving importance to what others think of me. I usually don't operate in life this way, but this kind of became a habit for the past few months I guess. It was almost like an epiphany - "Hey come on! What am I doing exactly!Why did I stray away from myself so much! So much time and energy wasted!"
As everybody would know at some point, you see, life gets so messed up when we start getting concerned about what sort of impressions we are creating on others. As I reflect on what led me into that mode, I realize nobody is an exception in life. When we go through phases of deficit consciousness, we tend to get into this mode, I realize. (There can be many other reasons why people do this, but I'm saying this is one of the reasons and the one relevant for me now.) I'm a human after all, so couldn't stay unperturbed by this deficit consciousness. Glad, I got aware of my situation :-) Life often comes a full circle...not once...but keeps spiraling that way...Life man life!!
Today, I suddenly realized that I have been wasting a lot of time giving importance to what others think of me. I usually don't operate in life this way, but this kind of became a habit for the past few months I guess. It was almost like an epiphany - "Hey come on! What am I doing exactly!Why did I stray away from myself so much! So much time and energy wasted!"
As everybody would know at some point, you see, life gets so messed up when we start getting concerned about what sort of impressions we are creating on others. As I reflect on what led me into that mode, I realize nobody is an exception in life. When we go through phases of deficit consciousness, we tend to get into this mode, I realize. (There can be many other reasons why people do this, but I'm saying this is one of the reasons and the one relevant for me now.) I'm a human after all, so couldn't stay unperturbed by this deficit consciousness. Glad, I got aware of my situation :-) Life often comes a full circle...not once...but keeps spiraling that way...Life man life!!
